in contrast this is sober and regretful tumblring
sooooo, caffeine + alcohol at 8pm on a night when I am full of anxiety was not the smartest plan. if this keeps up much longer I will go back to reading for class :||||
it was the strangest thing though, I was about to fall asleep, and then I woke up suddenly convinced I was hearing music — a minor third and a fifth played together, then the root, over and over and over. thought it was my roommate playing his guitar, but he doesn’t ordinarily play like that.
then I turned off my fan and the music went away. so now I am banishing it with some judicious use of Leo Kottke.
can’t say I want to go to health services and be like “yo, anxiety is keeping me from sleeping, pill me up” but given the increasing frequency with which this is happening (although again, caffeine late + alcohol isn’t helping) it may need to be an option. fourth time in a month. :||||||||
